A LETTER TO MY FATHER

Apr 21
3 min read

Dear Abba,

My King, my Lord, the everlasting God. The One who never sleeps nor slumbers! The Creator of the universe. The Alpha and the Omega, the I Am that I Am! How beautiful are Your works! Your grace extends throughout the world and there is none greater than You. Greetings from me, Your daughter.

I present myself before You today as a living sacrifice, hoping I am holy and acceptable before You. You told me that before I can stand before in Your holy place, I need to have clean hands and a pure heart, that I should not worship idols or swear deceitfully. But Father, I know I am a sinner, yet the blood of Your Son has washed all my sins away, and You have adopted me; that’s why I can call You Abba Father. You have given me the chance to ask for mercy daily and I am grateful for the opportunity. Today I plead that You search me, O God, and know my heart. Test me and know my anxious thoughts. Point out anything in me that offends You, and lead me along the path of everlasting life. Because I want to stay closer to You. I would rather be a gatekeeper in Your house than live the good life in the homes of the wicked. Oh Abba, I am a stranger on the earth so please do not hide Your commandments from me. Order my steps in Your word, and let not any iniquity have dominion over me. Give me the grace to stand in times of trials. Your grace is indeed sufficient for me, may I not forget or abuse that.

How I’ve longed for You O Lord. Your presence, Your voice! In the wind, I couldn’t hear You. In the noise, and in the chaos, Your voice was far from me. But the moment I became still, there was Your voice. It has always been a reminder that until I stop and remain still, I might miss You. O Sarah, be still and know that He is God, and because He is God everything falls in place for you. But God how long? How long should this persecution from the world go on? How long will the sorrows go on for? How long will the trials take place? I hear Your calming words reassuring me that Jesus went through it, so we would too. However, I should take heart, because You have overcome this. Glory be to the name of the Lord.

How I love You Lord. I keep reminiscing on how my world stopped once upon a time, and everything changed because You knocked and I answered. O Sarah, remember your former lover! How I was happy to be in Your presence, like a lady that has finally gotten married. But what happened? Have mercy upon me O Lord. Purify me Father! Purify me like gold. I always wonder, will I make it when I pass through fire? O God, have mercy on me. May I not please the world but please only You! May Your love overshadow me Abba. May I experience the love of Christ, though it is too great to fully understand. I want to be made complete with all the fullness of life and power that comes from You. Patience Sarah, patience. To everything, there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven. Patience Sarah.

As I leave, I say this: Now to You who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that I ask or think, according to the power that works in me, to You be glory in my life, and my entirety, by Christ Jesus to all generations, forever and ever. Amen.